Tuesday, November 11, 2008
{ 11.11.08 }
I was wondering about somethings while I was cooking the bacon. Yes, bacon for dinner. Weird huh? Back to the wondering. I was think how good my best friend used to be.
In fact till now, she is the best of the best----
bestest(you can say). She is always willing to give up every small thing for me. Willing to defend for me even if she knows that what she was doing would let the whole class hate her. Willing to give up the last penny she has for me. She is really great. She is the reason why I am particular in choosing next best friends. I get to tell who is real or not.
Because of her, I am no longer that arrogant. Because of her I really understand the true meaning of friendship. Because of her, I am always cautious not to let loose another friend. Because of her, I really treasure everyone around me. She has practically changed my life. She has done so much more for me. I can't list them all out. I miss the way she scolds people. Full of reason, might, power etc. The way she handle things, is just so admirable. And that time when have got back our
PSLE results, though lower, I was laughing sinisterly inside. Happy that the fact that I am smarter than her, happy that she was stupid-er than me, happy about everything in the world you can think of, happy about all the wrong reason, and getting happy that normal best friends would not. I know I am bad. But I am still learning. I apologise for this sincerely. I really really don't deserve you. I am really sorry. Whether you can feel this or not, I am saying it with a heavy heart. I am sorry for telling your secrets away. I am sorry I let you lose your trust on everybody.
YOU-KNOW-WHO, if you are reading my blog, which I hope you would, I hope you can understand me and forgive me. I really regretted all the times that I took you for granted. I am sorry I told of your secrets when I shouldn't have. I just read your blog. I did not post this because I have read you blog. In fact I was just missing those times we had together.
Ya, you might not find me like this before. In fact I was more self-fish than this. I want to go over to give you a big hug and hope that we were like before. Selfless. I know it can't happen. So what if I
said it is my only birthday wish this year? If you don't, I am not
surprised either. Please do not let whatever I have done to you to let you lose that trust from your friend. They are good people unlike me okay?
And if anybody dare to bully her I'll give them
a piece of me. NO! Shouldn't say that. I should say the whole piece of me(punches I meant)
